Last Saturday I had a chance to go to a paint night event.
I had made the commitment to attend weeks before and I was interested in going. Then Saturday afternoon came and my anxiety set in. I started to doubt my interest in the event, and was beginning to come up with excuses and reasons on why I did not want to attend. This was a charity event for a non-profit that spreads the words about mental health and suicide prevention, yet I almost let me anxiety take hold of me for no good reason.
I decided to take control and say no to my anxiety.
I decided to stand up and be the one in control. I made the decision that I was going to go to the event. Friends had told me that it was fun and that I would enjoy it. I am glad that I did. I really enjoyed myself. I had always enjoyed painting and drawing so this would be the perfect event for me to express my creativity. And that is exactly is what happened. I had never been to anything like this so I did not know what to expect.
When I arrived there were tables full of easels, brushes, paint, and canvases. I took my seat at a table with my family. Once the instructions began on the creating the painting, I felt myself become instantly calm. I was engrossed in what I was creating and making sure that the colors blended together nicely. I was transported to another place. A place where I was not thinking about anxiety, bipolar disorder, or medication. It was just me and my creation. I fully enjoyed myself and my finished product was proof of that.
I learned a couple of things from this experience. One of the first things that I learned was that I have the power when anxiety sets in and tries to tell me lies and take over. I have control over what I do when I am afraid or when fear sets in. I also learned that when you step out of your comfort zone, you may actually like it.
Give new things and experiences a try, you never know what you will end up liking.
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