Rumination!  It's Exhausting

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How naive was I to think that anxiety just caused me to worry constantly.  

I really did think, )years before my recovery journey) that anxiety only caused constant worry.  Not regular worry like forgetting something off of your grocery list, but major worry. Many times about things that were highly unlikely to happen.  I would worry about romantic relationship problems, when I was not even in a relationship. Or another example would be to worry about a conflict that had not happened.  I thought about what the conversation would sound like with the other person, and then on top of all of that, I would be upset by the outcome of the imaginary conflict. I just came up with scenario after scenario and over and over I would worry so much about things that were not even a problem.  


Now, I do have quite an imagination, but these thoughts were always unpleasant and I ended up upsetting myself after having these thoughts.  There was a time when the harder I thought the more upset I would get and I would display physical symptoms because of this. I would feel nauseous, have headaches and things like that.  It was pretty out of control. Little did I know that for all of those years I was ruminating. According to Psychology Today ruminating is “simply repetitively going over a thought or problem without completion. The repetition and feelings of inadequacy raises anxiety and anxiety interferes with solving the problem.”  In other words, I could not see the light at the end of the tunnel.

Ruminating is exhausting.  

I was caught in a loop of stress and anxiety and would focus on the negative, instead of the positive.  I say it all of the time and I am going to say it again. Maintaining a mental illness is a lifestyle change.  One of the major lifestyle changes is mindset which is so important. When we change our thoughts, we train our brains to look for the positive as well as seek out solutions.  


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Everyday Warriors: Fiona Barker

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I want to fill you in on a little secret.

 I LOVE to see people who were diagnosed with mental health disorders living the lives that they want and deserve.  We are here to live out our dreams. We are in charge of that, for ourselves. For years, I was in a closet of shame and I was afraid to come out.  I didn’t know that there were others like me who had careers, families, dreams, oh yes and mental illness. I was so brainwashed by the shame and stigma surrounding mental health and mental illness.


Whenever I come across amazing “Everyday Warriors”  I get so excited, that I have decided to share their stories with you.  The more people that come forward regarding their mental health challenges, the more normalized the conversation of mental health and mental will become.

I met Fiona Barker on social media a couple of months ago.  She is a designer based in the UK and started her own business called Fiona Barker Design.  She creates inspirational illustrations that promote positivity in the home. She also has anxiety.  The reason why I was drawn to Fiona and wanted to share her story is for several reasons: 1) She is a talented creative woman, 2) She took a chance on herself and started her own business, and 3) She is very open about her struggles with anxiety and how she copes with it.  I love this! And I love people who are examples of my motto “Living Your Best Life Despite a Diagnosis”.


Fiona created a magazine called “Being Yourself” Magazine.  

In the magazine, she talk about her anxiety and what she does personally to combat the feelings of overwhelm, and anxiety, among other things.  I invite you to take a look at the magazine. We can all learn from each other, and she shares some great advice in this issue.


Click here to see the magazine!


I also invite you to follow Fiona on Instagram where she is sharing sneak peaks of her work, her cute dog and her life.  She is a true example of not letting a diagnosis stop you!


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